Thursday, November 30, 2006

MARRIED MEN

What is it with married men these days?
As if every married man SHE knew had woke up suddenly to realise that SHE had existed one day in his life, and that SHE still exists.
Many of HER friends since childhood were males.
Many of the male friends SHE had known since HER teenage years are now married.
Some of these many-married-male-friends have always treated HER like a friend and always denied the fact that they have 'extra' feelings towards HER, even when their eyes showed it.
None of these 'some-many friends' expressed any feelings, so SHE always assumed they were friends only.
However, and SHE does not know why, all of these 'some-many-friends' have started calling and started trying to become closer to HER. What is shocking to HER, is their shock as to why SHE is not moving a step further than HER previous steps when they (him and him and him ) were not married.
For God's sake, you guys were HER friends and u never showed 'further feelings' when u were single. Why on earth u think that (and imagine.... after you got married) u expect HER to accept to take a step further than being a friend. You guys are married, and if u only wanted HER friendship when u were single why are u asking HER for more now that u are married and have children?
WE are talking here about different kinds of men, different moods, different backgrounds, different looks and different everything. These men have nothing in common except that they all have passed into HER life one day.
Trying to be comprehensive, but SHE does not know if it makes sense enough. All SHE knows is that for the past few weeks SHE had been replying to phone calls from 'some-many-married-male-friends' SHE hasn't seen for a while and from 'friends' SHE has not expected to ever hear about again, let alone answer their phone calls.
SHE had been wondering for sometime now and still is.
What could have suddenly happened to all these 'friends'?
Is it possible that a certian virus was generated and they got infected by 'the need to talk to HER'?
Could it be that SHE suddenly became more attractive to them? ;)
Is it possible that they all feel like having some fun and SHE was number one on their 'trial list'?
SHE really does not know what is going on, but SHE will be wondering about the true reason and cause untill SHE gets certain answers.
AND...
For all of you 'some-many-married-male-friends', may you all be given the gift of knowing what u want in life and to learn to be satisfied with what u have and what u once have chosen.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

To Her Best Interest

SHE always believed that whatever comes through her way, and whatever happens to her in life is always to her best benefit.
SHE never discussed it with anyone even with herself because she was certain of her belief. As if she trusted destiny so blindly. SHE raised no question whatsoever about any issue that slipped into her life.
SHE believed that destiny would only bring to her what would be best to carry on successfuly with her life.
However;
- Being not yet married at the age of 34 is to her BEST INTEREST?!
- Having not fulfilled even her smallest dream is to her BEST INTEREST?!
- Being single with no special man in her life is to her BEST INTEREST?!
- Leading her life alone without a specific solid target is to her BEST INTEREST?!
- Being locked next to her single family member is to her BEST INTEREST?!
- Being unable to lose the extra weight she gained over the years is to her BEST INTEREST?!
- Meeting the wrong men all the time, and the correct men at the wrong time is to her BEST INTEREST?!
- Losing her best friends one by one as each gets married and moves away is to her BEST INTEREST?!
- Being locked up in a job she does not enjoy and does not have the courage to move out is to her BEST INTEREST?!
- Comforting and clearing the tears of those who are dear to her while no one understood her moods quick enough and she accepting all that with a smile is to her BEST INTEREST?
Although all that may seem very gloomy and sad, but she still believed that all that encountered her in life was definitely to her BEST INTEREST!!!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

HER Beloved Friend...

He was HER friend. HER closest best friend.
He best suited HER personality. They were one mind, one soul in two bodies.
They complimented each other.
And they loved each other dearly.... as friends.
He never felt SHE could be more than a friend. SHE was a dear sister. NO more.
BUT...
He cannot live without HER . Cannot survive without HER presence in his life. HER advices. HER sweet way of sharing his discussions and agreeing with him, and him with HER .
He never liked it when SHE went on vacation, not even for a couple of weeks.
All HER friends thought that SHE was stupid 'cause SHE was unable to 'catch' him and make him HER's.
All their friends wanted them together because they best fit together.
None wanted HER out of the group, and none thought anyone would deserve him more than HER.
His family loved HER dearly and thought that their son is so valuable and deserves a lot and thus SHE would be the best choice. They waited and prayed he would surprise them one day.
SHE felt so close to him. SHE shared everything with him.
SHE understood him. SHE thought he might be HER perfect match, only if he saw that SHE can be more than a friend. HER family loved him dearly. They accepted him as part of the family.
They trusted each other so much. He trusted HER advices, and SHE trusted his decisions and thus SHE accepted it when he presented his girlfriend to HER. At first, SHE didnt like the way she looked and the way she was moody. But SHE trusted his decision. His family didnt accept her at all, but SHE still trusted his decision. The friends told HER SHE wasn't clever enough to keep him for HERSELF, but SHE still trusted his decision. His family moved closer to HER trying to make their son see HER differently, but SHE still trusted his decision.
He got engaged and SHE became closer to his fiance'. SHE tried to understand what had attracted him to her. SHE never understood why, but SHE still trusted his decision.
He got married and he was happy, and SHE was happy for him.
SHE helped in all the wedding details.
SHE visited them in their 'golden cage'.
BUT...
Something in his eyes changed.
The way he looked at HER was different. SHE didn't know what, but certainly something was different.
SHE didn't understand what was the cause of this change, or what this change was, but....
SHE STILL TRUSTS HIS DECISIONS.