I saw u in my dream.
What a dream !!
I woke up after an hour of sleep, but i was fully awake.

He came to our house. In the outfit i loved the most.
I went to shake hands with him, trying to play upset with him, he pulled me to his lap.
He kissed my cheek and turned his other cheek for me to kiss, to which i waited for a couple of seconds and gave him the kiss i day dreamed about, a loud kiss on his cheek.
He suddenly turned his head and my second kiss was on the corner of his mouth.
He then turned and faced me directly. He kissed my lips.
Oh oh, he made me dizzy with a kiss that lasted half a second.

He jumped from the living room, and into the kitchen, as energetic as always!
I called him with his given name only. No additions. I was the only one allowed to do that (that was also in the dream only). My mom looked at me eyes fully open and surprised.

And,,,
I woke up :(
Actually :)
I am in deep love with this man.
I know i can never get to him in real life. So, the dream was more than satisfactory.
I can still feel his breath, and feel his tender lips on my lips.
Would i ever meet with him again? In real life? In my dreams?
Would i act like a teenage girl and look for his news here and there?
And would i feel upset and sad when i hear that he's in love with another girl and will marry soon? Will i be shocked then?
I dont know about the future. But at this moment, i am enjoying the memory of my dream!

Is it true that the more we lose the more we are set free?

i miss his words

i miss his lips...

i miss his look into my eyes

i miss his eyes...

i miss his sarcastic laugh

i miss his voice...

i miss his hands

i miss his touch...

This is true for me

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(As per an email received today, i wish i would receive this everyday!)

George Carlin's Views on Aging

Do you realize that the only time in our lives when we like to get old is when we're kids? If you're less than 10 years old, you're so excited about aging that you think in fractions. "How old are you?" "I'm four and a half!" You're never thirty-six and a half. You're four and a half, going on five! That's the key!!

You get into your teens, now they can't hold you back.You jump to the next number, or even a few ahead. "How old are you?" "I'm gonna be 16!" You could be 13, but hey, you're gonna be 16!

And then the greatest day of your life . . . you BECOME 21. Even the words sound like a ceremony. YOU BECOME 21. YESSSS!!!

But then you turn 30. Oooohh, what happened there? Makes you sound like bad milk! He TURNED; we had to throw him out. There's no fun now, you're just a sour-dumpling. What's wrong? What's changed?

You BECOME 21, you TURN 30, then you're PUSHING 40. Whoa! Put on the brakes, it's all slipping away. Before you know it, you RE ACH 50 and your dreams are gone. But wait!!! You MAKE IT to 60. You didn't think you would! So you BECOME 21, TURN 30, PUSH 40, REACH 50 and MAKE IT to 60. You've built up so much speed that you HIT 70! After that it's a day-by-day thing; you HIT Wednesday! You get into your 80s and every day is a complete cycle; you HIT lunch; youTURN 4:30 ; you REACH bedtime and it doesn't end there. Into the 90s, you start going backwards; "I Was JUST 92." Then a strange thing happens. If you make it over 100, you become a little kid again. "I'm 100 and a half!" May you all make it to a healthy 100 and a half!!

HOW TO STAY YOUNG

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay "them."

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health : If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.


AND ALWAYS REMEMBER : Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

I miss Lebanon...
How much i hated the situation in Lebanon, and how much i felt bored, insecure, angry, helpless .....
I just had to leave, or else i would hate it.
And since i did not want to hate it i left.
Now i am a few thousands of Kms away (I honestly dont know how much), i really want to return.
However, i want to return to the Lebanon i knew between 1998 and 2006, not the Lebanon of 2007.
Lebanon, the country of love, freedom and beauty.

To all politicians, please leave us alone. Lebanon is much much better without you!

"Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. . . . When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence". Edmond de Goncourt (1822-96) and Jules de Goncourt (1830-70), French writers. The Goncourt Journals (1888-96; repr. in Pages from the Goncourt Journal, ed. by Robert Baldick, 1962), entry for 15 Nov. 1859.

"I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman"

Anais Nin

I think

i am leaving

It feels bad

because

he didn't

make me stay

حالة حب عابرة؟؟

لكم كنت أتمنى أن أرقص معك على أنغام

"

غني للناس للحب غني لي غني

غني لدقة قلب غني لي غني

غني ل رفيق الدرب غني لي غني

غني لي غني غني غني

غني لقلب مشتاق ناطر ع نار

غني لحلم ع وراق بعدو ما صار

غني لأيلول وفراق ياخذ قرار

غني لي غني غني غني

غني لبال مشغول منو ع بال

غني لعيون باتقول حكي ما انقال

غني لجواب عطول باقي سؤال

غني لي غني غني لي

عم تخلص الكلمات ... والقلب موجوع

عم تغرق البسمات ... ببحر لدموع

غني لقلب مشتاق ناطر ع نار
غني لحلم ع اوراق بعدو ما صار
غني لأيلول وفراق ياخذ قرار
غني لي غني غني غني

"

ولكم كنت اتمنى ان ارقص لك على انغام

"

احبك جدا" جدا" جدا

وأعرف أني تورطت جدا

وأحرقت خلفي جميع المراكب

وأعرف أني سأهزم جدا

برغم الدموع ورغم الجراح ورغم التجارب

وأعرف أني في غابات حبك وحدي أحارب

وأني ككل المجانين حاولت صيد الكواكب

وأبقى أحبك رغم يقيني بأن الوصول إليك محال

محال محال محال

يا من دفعت بحبك نصف حياتي

ويا من أشيلك كالطفل في أغنياتي

أنا لا أحبك من اجل شال حرير.. وعطر مثير

ولكن أحبك حتى اؤكد ذاتي

أحبك... وأحبك

وأعرف أن هواك إنتحار

وأني حين سأكمل دوري سيرخى على الستار

وأن صمودي أمام هواك إنتصار

"

Ultimate Happiness

He taught me today not to say "STOP" at the point of my ultimate happiness.

To enjoy the Pleasure and take the moment to the last.

"Laugh for a minute and take the world in a second" he says...

وداعا" صديقتي ....

وكأن قدري أن أودع أحبائي الواحد تلو الآخر

ما يجعلني أتحمل كل هذا الوداع هو أملي بأنهم يسافرون بحثا" عن مستقبل مشرق أكثر، عن استقرار ربما، أو عن فائدة مادية اكبر

بالأمس القريب ودعت جميع أصدقائي عندما حان موعد دخولي الى الجامعة

لاحقا" بدأت أودع أصدقائي الجدد الواحد تلو الآخر، مسافرين باحثين عن أوضاع أفضل وعمل أفضل

منذ عدة أيام ودعت أخوتي المسافرين طلبا" للعلم

وبالأمس ودعت صديقتي وزوجها

أما اليوم فأودع صديقتي الغالية لا بل توأم روحي

هي انسانة صغيرة في السن ولكن كبيرة بعطائها ومشاعرها، عظيمة بحبها للجميع

لك انت صديقتي

لكم أحسست انك انت اختي الكبرى الصغرى التي لم احصل عليها يوما

لكم أحسست انك انت التي تعطيني الأمل بأن الحياة جميلة وبأن الضحكة هي أغلى شيء في الوجود

لكم أحسست بان الدنيا ما زالت بخير لمجرد وجودك انت فيها

أنت البريئة، الجميلة، الصغيرة، المتفهمة، المتفائلة

لكم كان وجودك في حياتي يعطيني احساس بالدفء والسعادة

لكم أندم على الوقت الذي اضعته ولم نقضيه سويا

لكم احزن لأننا لم نتشارك المزيد من الأوقات الطويلة التي كنا فيها نحن الاثنين "ما النا خلق نعمل شي

لكم اكره لحظة الفراق

لكم اكره لحظة الوداع

أعلم بأنني اودعك مكرهه وحزينة ولكن أملي من الله كبير بان ينير طريقك ويهديك لما هو خير لك دائما" وأبدا

ما أرجوه منك هو أن لا تتغيري أبدا مهما قست الدنيا ومهما تغير البشر من حولك

ابقي كما انت، عظيمة بعطائك، بريئة ومتفائلة ومتسامحه وابتسامتك تملأ المكان دفئا" وطمأنينة

لا تتغيري ، فمثلك قليل في هذه الدنيا

وجودك يعطي البهجة والفرح والاحساس بان هناك بشر ما زالوا يحبون الخير للجميع ويفرحون لفرح الاخرين ويحزنزن لحزنهم. بان هناك تسامح وصدق في هذا الكون الغريب وهذه الحياة القاسية

أعرف انه بسفرك سأخسر كثيرا

قلبي يبكي وينكسر ولكن دمعتي تأبى النزول

اختي وحبيبتي انت

اسفه اذا كنت مررت لحظة وكنت بحاجة لي ولم اكن بجانبك. تقصيري كان كبير جدا ولكن من دون قصد، فسامحيني أرجوك

أشكرك على كل لحظة كنت فيها بجانبي تستمعين الى صمتي وتمسحين فيها دمعتي. وعلى كل لحظة سعادة بها فرحتي لفرحي

أشكرك على عطائك وقلبك الكبير

أشكرك على الدفء الذي احطيني فيه دائما

أشكرك على صدق مشاعرك وبرائة تعبيرك

اشكرك لانك انت كما انت، عظيمة

في الختام، أتمنى لك دوام التوفيق والنجاح. أتمنى لك الثبات والصبر في الحياة. وأتمنى لك الحكمة والنضوج في قراراتك كما كنت دوما

الله معك...