UPDATE ....

AT 14- SHE fell in love with someone who was in love with a close relative of HER's.

He called her a few times.
SHE did not give him a chance to talk.

SHE only wanted to understand what he wanted from HER.

SHE wanted to know why he suddenly remembered her and insisted on seeing her after 12 years.

12 YEARS.... Yes, it was a long time, SHE was not the same person he had some attraction for and definately he was not the same person SHE fell in love with.

HER curiousity grew and SHE accepted his invitation for "a cup of coffee and some talk".
SHE saw him today and ....
Here they were again.
Facing each other.

He blamed her for not holding strong to him when he was ending his relationsip with her relative. SHE told him SHE would never hold strong to anyone, that he had to decide whom he wanted to be with.

But with them it was different, he was in love with HER relative and that SHE would never accept to be with him, ever.

But he was there infront of HER again, with his seducing and catching eyes. With his sweet smile.
He was interested in knowing all that SHE had been through.

The shock was that he still remembered HER favourit song.
He remembered what SHE liked and disliked.
He said he missed HER smile.


SHE had to talk and SHE confronted him and said that SHE was not interested in any new friendship as SHE had enough freinds SHE was happy with and did not want more.
SHE was not interested in getting into a love realtionship that was sentenced to death since the first moment.
SHE argued and was very aggressive with him.

He returned to HER after he got married and has a twin at the age of 5.
SHE knew SHE should not have met him in the first place, not even answered his phone calls.
SHE should have said no and sticked to her 'no'.
However, HER curiousity led her to meet with him.


Now, and after 4 hours of the meeting, SHE feels guilty having been so aggressive with him.
SHE feels bad at the way she treated him and silenced him.
As if she was taking revenge from the way he betrayed her when she was 14.


He did not say that he was in love with HER.
He did not say that he would leave his wife for HER sake.
He said that he wanted to speak to HER and to know HER more, and no one knows what could happen in the future.
He said he could not hurt even one 'hair' of her.

SHE knew that all what SHE had said was correct and that it was the only true thing that SHE should have said, nothing more, but SHE still felt guilty.

He felt the saddness SHE carried in her heart, behind the mask SHE wore on HER eyes.
He had changed, unfortunately.......... to the better.
He became more handsome and more seducing.
He became more calm and more like a man of her dreams.

SHE does not know what the next step will be.
SHE knows that SHE should not want to fall in love with him, and that SHE definately would if she continues to meet him and to answer his phone calls.


Deep inside HER, SHE really wishes that he would call again.
SHE does not know what HER next step would be but SHE wants to make correct what SHE made wrong today.


Would he call again?
Should SHE meet him again?
SHE is in so much doubt and confusion.
Maybe when SHE wakes up the next day SHE would be faced by the answers and the will for all tomorrow's challenges.